heh thanks.
i dont think that
i could EVER live where
you do then. caue life w/o food.
man idk what i would do.
hahahahaa. i ALWAYS have food by my side.
its always there for me.
wether i bve sad, happy,or angry.
its always there to help.
ahah im lame this i already know.
how are you?

I cant help it hun.
The people, they love me.
<3
Lol Come see me when you get back from cali.

I love you more baby.
:]

I cant help that zero.
I love you so much,
and I dont think you will EVER even know.
:(

and I'll make a account.
But I need your addy.
cause d wont give it to me
cause shes a lil bitch.
lol
jkjk


but I cant help but not fall even more for you.
and it kills me cause I cant have you anymore.


i need you to do me a favor.
Listen to this song by RYAN CABRERA
it's called True.
When i see you,
im gonna sing that song to you.
:)
Im learning how to play it on guitar for you now.
:]

so when I get to see you,
I can sing and play it for you.

Im getting good too.
:)

I miss you.
I love you.
x

im alwaysssssss hungry.
ah.ha.ah.ha.
yes nice meeting you too.
im GREAT!!!! ah my life is going swell.
im a happy happy gal:)

hello. im jess:)
how are you?

you blokced diva,
didnt you?


I know she made a new one.
I dont really like msn.
But i can use Meebo if you want me to?
Just let me know so i can make a msn account.


and I dont want to flirt anymore.
Everyday I try so hard to forget your engaged.
Last night milah made everything worse by bringing it up.
I mean,
I've cried for days.
then when I finally stop,
and become a little happy,
she crashes it for me.
:(
I love you Zero.
and im sorry for everything.

:]

hi zero luv. But how do i know its you. IDK about anyone on skem. Bleh. <3

hi zero luv. But how do i know its you. IDK about anyone on skem. Bleh. <3

awwwh cupcakes.
:)

I'll throw the cupcake at your nose.
So you can have icing on your nose.
hehe.

Im gonna flirt SO much.
=/
gah its gonna kill me.
:(
Not being with you.
But whatever
I'll make it through.
:)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
:(

thats hours from me.
whatever,
I'll drive to you.
you're worth it.
:]
I just got a new car,
it's a rangerover.
so it's all good.
:]
it needs miles on it.
and I just found my reason to put some on.
:]
I love you Zero.
with all my heart.
and more.
Im so glad I met you.


Bailey is my brother by the way.
But yeah,
your friends adorable.
anyways,
I love you.
I miss you.
Being without you kills me.
I cant wait to see you.
It'll be the BEST day of my life,
even it becomes the shittiest,
just being able to meet you would be the best day.


you're going to give me a hug when I see you right?
:]



ily <3333

good.
I want to sit down and just tlak to you.
I miss you soo much.
Diva is still pissed at me.
=/
I know she wanted to meet you too,
but I cant talk her.
I can't take not being with you baby.
it fucking kills.
=/
Bailey is coming out the 21st.
So he will be here as well.
I know he wants to chill with jess,
which she is like,
a couple hours from me.
She lives in Paradise.
And I live in Palm springs.
what part of Cali aer you coming to?
I really hope you say northern.
But either way,
it doesn't matter,
I will drive to see you.
:]

I love you soooooooo much baby.
:]

I broke up with him.
:(
I dont really care anymore.
YOU are my world.
I dont care if he hates me.
i dont care if he loves me.
he knew I was with you before,
he knew we stopped talking,
he told me not to talk to you anymore,
I said fuck him and took the chance anyways,
I miss you SO fucking much Zero.


Look I wrote this for you. I have been debating wether or not to show you.


I grow weak from trying to hard to keep it alive.


But its not a bad thing.


I choose it.


I choose my love for you.


I close my eyes.


Take a deep breath.


I can almost sense you here.


A smile and a tear blossom on my face.


My lonely heart sinks.



The guitar strumming slows..
The sun can only warm me so much.


Come warm me in all my parts..
Breathe into me and take this sorrow.



I miss you so fucking much.


baby,
I really love you.
And Im so sorry things went down the way they did.
:(
I dont get how after all this time,
after everything, how we dont talk and then... I fall in love with you.
After talking a couple more times.
And it kills that I cant be with you.
it really does.
cause you know I love you.
And yet I cant have you.
That sucks SO bad.
:(


But im glad you still care about me.
At least that makes someone.
And I care about you back just as much.
God Zero,
I love you SO much.
I wish I could be with you again.
the worst thing is that I cant.

I....
cheated on my bf with my brother's bf.
Who lives here in cali.
and i still haven't told Bailey.
and Idk wtf I'm gonna do.
cause I cant tell him.
I hit Diva cause we were drinking and doin waaaaaay too many drugs,
and she invited Mickey over, Bailey's bf,
and we got into it, a little too hot and heavy,
and Diva was like,
I have to leave,
one of the girls there was trying to have sex with her,
and then she couldn't do that cause Diva has a bf.
And so yeah,
thats that,
but Diva left,
and I asked her NOT to.
I asked her not to even invite mickey over,
cause I knew that this was gonna happen
and she didnt care.
Idk the next day I woke up with Mickey.
:(
Diva said that she couldnt tell bailey, that I had to.
well,
I cant do that,
bailey is suicidal about stuff like that, and plus, bailey is my brother and best friend.
I pinned Diva against the wall and was yellin at her,
and then she hit me, and my first reaction was to hit her back.
I hit her in the face.
and I feel like shit.
she wont come home.
shes staying with Mickey.
Im so scared cause I know shes gonna hate me.
the other day I want out and I saw her and she just looked the other way.
she wants NOTHING to do with me.
and I feel bad about it.
I keep callin her and she doesnt pick up, so I leave voicemails saying Im sorry.
On top of that,
with my bf,
the reason we are fighting is because,
I told him you and I are talkign again, and that Im fallin for you again. And he hates me. He wont talk to me either.
He said he still loves me, but I feel like he doesnt, when we dont talk its like he doesnt care, and when we do talk he has nothing to say to me.
And idk anymore,
I feel like you are the ONLY one who actually cares.
besides Jess, and now that she knows, I doubt she cares anymore.
my world and my life is all falling apart.
Some little boy threw his drink at me and called me a faggot and that I should die.
and I was like
0_o
people hate me and I dont even do anything.
:(


Zero,
Im glad I have you in my life still,
your the ONLY one who seems to really care these days.