The Name Is Kitten and I’m lost with out you. My dreams are nightmares, my thoughts are drowning me. If only I could tell you, I love you with all my heart. If only I could see your smiling face, if only I never told you that. I wonder what life would be like if I was still with you. I wonder if you still love me. All I do is wonder, all I do is wish. Hope, maybe one day we will be together again. Days are flying by, and all I do is think of you. Your always there for me, your always there when I’m crying. You’re the glow in my eyes, the smile on my face, and the reason my heart beats so. I remember all those nights, every word you said, down to every touch you gave me. The shine in your loving eyes, the soft smooth touch of you hands, your body pushing on mine, against the wall in my bedroom. Your lips on mine, with the sweet passion of your kiss. The love we shared those nights were amazing. The back seat of the car were we had our first kiss, to the night in the tree house, to that day in the woods. The late night calls, the sexy pictures, and the sexy tone in your voice. You were my everything, and still are. You’re my heart, and soul. You make me who I am. All the things you say run throw my head. They created my dreams, the good dreams I had, with me and you. The sweet love we make in my dreams, its something I missed out on. Something I wish one day I could experience. I wish for my future to be with you. You to be the husband of my kids and the loving father they need. I would like to be your love and your life. I would like to be that everything you need, that everything your looking for. I would like if I could spend the rest of my life in your arms growing old together. I would like to be the last voice you here, the last person you see every night before you go to sleep. I want you to be the first person I hear, and the only one I wake up seeing every morning. I want to love you like old times. I want you. You saved my life so many times. No matter what I do your always in my mind. I wish we can hang out like old times. I wish it could be just you and me on them lonely nights. You’re the sweetest guy I know, you make all the rest look like assholes. You’re the only one to truly love me, the only one to always be there for me. I tell you all my secrets down to the deepest darkest ones. I trust you more then any one, more then my family, more then my own boy friend. I wish you would have never left me. I wish we could be dancing under this gorges full white moon we have this night. I wish we could be laying side by side. Cuddling close because of the cold. Wearing your jacket to keep me warm. Staring in your eyes to see the world. If only that wasn’t a dream. If that was true, that would make life perfect, that would make my life perfect. If you only knew how I felt. If only you knew I would give the world to be with you, if only you know I would give my life for you to be happy. If only you knew I would do anything to see you one last time. If only you knew. I wish I could tell you every feeling I have for you, but words nor thoughts can explain what I feel for you. I wish I could prove to the world I love you. I wish you would want me like I want you. I wish you were here right now. My wishing and my dreams are the closest thing I have to you right now. You my life, you’re my world, you’re my best friend. I love you. And hope you love me to.