My name is calista,but you can call me by any of these nicknames:

-cali
-lissa
-calalily
-cuhLISTuh
-and cupcake.

I love my boyfriend Cory. I love all my friends. I love rock music.

I am here to make layouts and possibly new friends. Don't ask me about my life from the past because it sucks and I'll most likely end up crying. =] Yes I have depression. So don't be mean. I promise to not be mean to you. I try to be happy 24/7 because thats what is expected of me. Add me. Message me. Comment me. Thanks All, Much Love.

Some of my Decent Poetry:

1. Your Always There.

Its like your right there...
as I grab out and realize its just air.
Every thought brings back some prosperous memory
and I want nothing more then to go back to it.

The second a memory is pictured in my head
I feel myself missing you, but you were there the day before.
I remember all the mistakes that hurts us to bring up
how I always hoped for the better and I got it.

I can see myself waiting for you on an empty street
crying and raining, pouring down yet so lightly
calling out your name because I'm scared and its dark;
taking all my worst fears and shove them into one.

Even though you may never come, I still wait;
close my eyes and cry without a sound but the rain.
Then I feel your hand on my cheek and I'm awake.
You whispur, "I'm here, and I always will be."

Words that would make any young and in-love girl feel safe.
A sudden shock of fullness that seems to take away the pain.
I want to forever feel this fullness and security.
This is what love is, nothing more and nothing less.

2. The Other Night

When I saw you the other night
and how you held me so tight,
I felt like we were so close together;
that these feelings were gonna last forever.

Your bodies warmth upon my skin;
that I'm so glad this love is not a sin
because when you tell me those sweet things,
I can finally fell my tender wings.

And you slowly move in to kiss me
as my thoughts of you begin to free.
I blink once as what appears to be a tear.
You've shown me that there's nothing I should fear.

Deep down inside of me I feel
that this love for you is truely real.
You don't mind my imperfections
and try your very best not to hurt my effections.

Your lying here beside me until I fall asleep.
I close my eyes and then I dream so deep.
We are now in the sky up so very high.
I know in my heart that you would never lie.

I dream of all the special times that we've spent,
and every other place that together we went.
All the times that I would always start to cry
and somehow you ended up holding me as I sigh.

I wake up to your face as your about to kiss me.
I move my body to you and then I start to see;
that all my dreams that I just imagined
never really actually yet happened.

Soon I know you have to leave for awhile.
Tonight you made my thoughts go an extra mile.
Your getting up now slowly staring in my eyes.
I push aside all the bad times and look past the crys.

I miss every moment that I'm not with you,
but at least your in my thoughts and in my heart too.
Then you leave my house and tell me you love me.
Its so very hard to say good bye to my baby.

When I begin to write, example poetry, it always seems to take the place of depression. Maybe you should try it as well if you feel it will ease the depression, instead of making the bad decisions (cutting, overdose, drinking, etc.) hehe I always try to help. =]

Criss Angel. OMFG, I love this guy and his show! He is the craziest man alive. I believe he is a real Supernatural Angel. I swear he has supernatural powers or something. haha. If you haven't seen him, his show "Mind Freak" is on A&E. Great Show. =]