Im not like that now. I know better. I know now that people lie, & promises can be broken as quick as they're made. I understand that I might never be loved, & too quickly good things fly in front of your eyes before you can reach out & grab them. I know that you can't change or help time, so every now & then it will just run out. There isn't a place for everyone in the world, so if you're standing alone for awhile, that's why. Not everything in life comes easy, but when you work the hardest, that's when it's the best. You can't always expect people to care, & even when your best friends stab you in the front, dont think for one minute that they didn't already aim for your back. They missed for a reason. I have found out too soon, that in the end, you're your own best friend. Everyone will be broken at some point in their life & more often than not, its gonna hurt like hell. But you can't stop it. You can't change your fate. Some things are meant to be & all the pain you go through will end up resulting in something huge. You don't know what it is & when it happens it will hit you like a ton of bricks. At some point, when you have expierienced everything you can, the words 'Life' & 'Risk' won't mean anything to you anymore. But dont try & change that. Stuff like that is meant to happen. Overtime, certain things no longer have an affect on you. & that happens cause thats the way it supposed to be. But you'll learn all that later in life when little things like a sunrise or a spring rain starts to matter.